I’m no longer interested on fixing anything in my life.

Let be it if its ruin. I’m tired of hoping that people stay for no reason

I lost a place where I feel confident on telling my feelings. Now I am back alone in this journey

tonight will be last day that I like you.

Watching daily dose of sunshine really makes me feel like how my feelings and pain are valid.

Dumb ways to survive:)

I am slowly understanding that I am unable to achieve any happiness with my parents beside.

It’s the pain truth that I need to swallow. It’s the pills that I have been avoiding to take it thinking that they could change.

now I know they can’t

Seeing everyone around me having the greatest relationship with their dad where they can find the love that they deserves makes me proud of them. Because I know that being a father is not an easy job and it is their father's consciousness to let their children know how is it to be loved

and I am out here thinking what type of loved should I have been received and what type of relationship am I looking for

because at the end of the day, I will always be attracted to someone who behaves like my dad. The one who ignores my feelings and validation. The one who always think that they are right and the one who forces to love me