been a while

protect me from evil give me a reason?

verse one (Dagmawi)

Stuck inside a cycle
I'm the only person riding and my demon is my rival
I couldn't stop addiction so I built my self an idol
So everytime I'm asked i can blame it on that title
Poor me
Man pour me some drink
Talking bout the drugs yeah I'm feeling so sick
And I'm feeling so cheap
My thought is so big
And I'm diving inside and that shit is so deep
But its in my mind its gon be alright
Just gotta believe there is no low with no high
So I get so high on the low and the time always fly
I got pain on my heart but I'm not gonna cry
Addicted to the pain I might be feeling low
I'm broken inside but some how I'm still preaching hope

bridge (BADDD)

addicted been through it all i've seen my downfall
been addicted I've seen death call
i've been locked in my mind behind these walls
i've been lost in the pessimistic
never seen light i wasn't optimistic
turned from pain to the drugs
i can't fuck with this world so i rather hide
i was lost so i needed a guide
But i couldn't find anyone i needed help

verse two (BADDD)


shit i've done lost my mind a thousand times
i've done wrote these ryhmes and it's been hard times
cause i feel addicted
all these pain and problems are self inflicted
and i caused the mess and now i'm sober filled with stress
waiting for god's grace pushed my family and friends i needed space
broke all the mirrors cause i couldn't look at my fucking face
i was using, they offered me help i was refusing
i couldn't figure it out it was confusing
i was using drugs i was abusing
and nobody prayed for me or cared
as i passed out cold infront of them they all stared
it's been a journey i had to over come
i fucking hated it when i was numb
i couldn't control myself it was my demons
i've hurt the closest to me without no reasons
and my heart was broken and shattered to pieces
it's been hard times cold nights and no sleep
bad memories burned bridges so i still weep
i still weep

tell me whatcu think @BADD_D

And a man said, Speak to us of Self-Knowledge.
And he answered, saying:
Your hearts know in silence the secrets of the days and the nights.
But your ears thirst for the sound of your heart’s knowledge.
You would know in words that which you have always known in thought.
You would touch with your fingers the naked body of your dreams.
And it is well you should.
The hidden well-spring of your soul must needs rise and run murmuring to the sea;
And the treasure of your infinite depths would be revealed to your eyes.
But let there be no scales to weigh your unknown treasure;
And seek not the depths of your knowledge with staff or sounding line.
For self is a sea boundless and measureless.
Say not, “I have found the truth,” but rather, “I have found a truth.”
Say not, “I have found the path of the soul.” Say rather, “I have met the soul walking upon my path.”
For the soul walks upon all paths.
The soul walks not upon a line, neither does it grow like a reed.
The soul unfolds itself, like a lotus of countless petals.

fucking hell why can't i post

am i too scared?

i'm lost stuck in my head

the waters looking shallow

i need help honestly

but hey who can i ask for help?

just gotta toughen up and do the most

how can you love someone if you can't fucking love yourself?

i'ma fucking mess ahhh

hope you bear with me i'll get back to doing content on here